tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7139844582525046597.post2985734455877510788..comments2011-10-14T08:26:18.414-07:00Comments on In Memoriam: Nate Niec: from RobertRobert Paraguassuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06939442916386084155noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7139844582525046597.post-27368216460805996622009-10-16T10:22:13.291-07:002009-10-16T10:22:13.291-07:00sometimes i feel like there aren't adequate wo...sometimes i feel like there aren't adequate words in the english language to explain how heartbroken i am, or how beyond awesome nate was. i've also had a rough time trying to reconcile with nate's death. i sat in my car for over an hour one day because i wasn't sure i could move without completely losing my shit. i stare at the wall at work, at school, and at home. it's still inconceivable to me that he'll never be here again.<br /><br />the thing i loved about nate was that i knew he would always be there. we would go for year long stretches without speaking to each other, but i always knew how to find him and he was always there when i went looking. i'd convinced myself that he would ALWAYS be like that, that there would never be a time where i needed to find him and he would be gone. even in our periods of non-communication, i would think about him and hope that he was doing well. nate isn't the kind of person easily forgotten. he left such a big footprint (pun slightly intended) on everyone.<br /><br />i just hope that he knew how much he meant to me, that i cared about him, and that i would always love him. i'm pretty sure he knew, but the wondering is what makes me go catatonic and stare into space. he was so important to so many people, i just hope that he knew that. he is, without a doubt, the most awesome dude i will ever know in my lifetime. there's only one nate, and i will miss him forever. <br /><br />robert - please know that i'm thinking about you, although we drifted apart. i only wish i could ease everyone's pain. one day we'll all wake up and hopefully it will be a little brighter than the day before.<br /><br />- sarahUnknownhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02649088107100446560noreply@blogger.com